So i totally forgot about this until a friend had reminded me about it. A lot has happened lately since my last pos
ts. I met the most amazing man ever, I loved him with all my heart, he was my soul mate. We had moved in together; and he even gave me a promise ring. Unfortunality the wost night of my life happened- he was in a car accident and died with his friend. Its been hard to deal with and every day of every min is a new battle. It sucks I actually cant even put it into words. I miss not seeing him everyday when I'd wake up - He was the first thi
ng Id see before I went to bed and the first when I woke up. I miss not feeling him beside me, not being able to hug him, laugh with him - but most of all I miss his voice and the way he'd look at me. I still remember all the little things that happened to us just like it was yesterday. I remember on valentine
s day laying in bed with him snuggled up when he asked me if i'd move in with him (this was a big thing since after his ex and him broke up 3 years ago he swore he'd never live with someone until he was married). I remember 
what he did on our anniv. when he gave me my promise ring. I remember all the little rinkles around his lips when he'd smile.... i miss him a lot.. :(Im back in school not sure why cuz I hate it. I just hope I get into teachers college next year. However I do have a mid term on Thursday and I havent even started to study for it. So maybe I should start?
