So it really has been a while since I last stopped by. I re-posted a few of my fav songs that I had on my other blog and then deleted it since I didn't need to have two on here. I dunno how much I'll be here hopefully more often, I always knew writing allowed me to get out feelings that I wouldn't otherwise outright say or express in 'real life'..... Things have been up and down lately I'm not really sure how I feel but I know its not myself nore is it SUPPER DUPPER HYPER AND HAPPY more nostalgic, down, sad etc. etc..... a lot has been going on this month and I'm sure it doesnt help.
This month was the 2 year anniv of Jeremys accident (also probably playing into my fucked up feelings lately)... I've had a lot of time to reflect on things that have happened in the 3 years (year we knew eachother and then after his death). I'm frustrated with his friends and my friends... I saw one of them last weekend and it threw me for a loup (making me bawl my eyes out the whole way home from sudbury)... His mom has opened up a bit more; we've had a hard time with eachother - Not in a I hate you kinda way- but it was more when she saw me it made her hurt too much because she associated me with her son and in tern when i saw her it made me hurt a lot because i associate her with him... She e mailed me a big long e mail and it made me cry all about how I'm like the daughter she never had... I miss his family a lot but right now its too painful to see them even though at the same time i feel like thats what i need right now.
I've started Weight Watchers officially... Ive never been good with this type of commitment so we will have to wait and see how that goes- i hope i am able to stick with it....
On that note - I'm gonna go... Lets see how long i stick with this blog seeing as the last post was a year ago ish....
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Honey, I'm so sorry for your loss.
You're a strong person.
I'm going to be a regular follower of your blog :)
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