Sunday, August 23, 2009
Feelin like I've failed :(
I just need to vent. I've been unemployed since June (when I graduated). I cant get a job teaching or in the education field, or even a regular non-education job. I've been applying everywhere and I have yet to even have 1 interview since June. I'm starting to feel like I've failed. I mean I have this great education that lots of people dont have the option of getting, and your supposed to come out of school and start in the real world with a job and I can't even get that. I have bills to pay that I can't pay- and I'm living at home so its not like im currently worrying about rent and stuff, but I do have to deal with other things. Its just really frustrating and after being out for so long without even getting a single interview i'm starting to feel pretty useless- I mean I can't even seem to get a job as a cashier. Ive entertained the thought of going to the UK to teach because they seem to be desperate, but something keeps holding me back. Probably the fact that Id be scared crapless because id be goin along, wouldn't know anyone, and the kids there are a lot harder to deal with than canadian children. The plus is I could actually save a LOT of money. But i dont wanna leave my family, my bunny, and again i can't make a huge transition like that alone. So its back to layin in bed all day as i look for jobs. I just want something to come along that id actually like. Daycare was a thought; but i dont like younger children unless they are in some way related to me lol. I dont wanna change diapers all day and i know i wouldnt be happy- and when your working with children you NEED to enjoy your job because the kids will catch on and the way you feel will reflect in how they feel about you. I just want the feeling of failing and letting people down to go away. I look at my brother who seems to get everything so easily, he got fired from his job 4 weeks ago and already has 4 different job offers- one from each interview he went on. He has an income and pays his bills and yet i can't even get that and i have a higher education than him. I just feel like ive let alot of people down- including myself.
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